I feel like I'm losing myself and it's starting to scare me
A new beginning a new change, the life of tim.
I need a place to express myself, this is my escape
Currently Listening to: Shake it off - Mariah Carey
Current Thought: wishes my internet was 10x faster ahha
So yesterday night was my brothers graduation and yeh it was so pretty. Melbourne Uni has the best buildings i've ever seen ever! i wish i could graduate there =( Anyways yehh so i just had work and met my family later at the Uni and yeh took heaps of photos which i promised myself i will not spam so i'll just post 2 pics up. The actual graduation is a bit boring and stuff but it's like a really really important event in their life so it's quite tolorable to stand. Although i must say i was really really tired from work but yeh it was good.
So anyways i just wanted to post that up and also Leelee and Nicholas are going to Malaysia and Singapore later tonight so i won't see them until 2009! aww lucky them!! and aww im going to miss them..
Currently Listening to: Disturbia - Rihanna
Current Thought: Thinks that someone is a dickhead
Oh my goodness im soo angry right now.. well not really but anoyed and pissed over something so stupid too but arghhhhh.. Basically right i really really don't like people who think their top shit and know everything and their the best rah rah rah and everything it just pisses me off to no end. Like just before an convosation inspired me to write this entry.
Like seriously who really likes these kinda people? i mean you present them something and ask for their advice and they totally kill you with critisms.. and then what anoys me more is that i don't believe their background or cridentials shows that they are an expert in this particular area... Oh my gosh it's like the more they rant on about it the more you start to question what the hell is going on here. For example i will give you a very simple example that is totally not related to this. Everyone that knows me, knows i've been playing tennis for over 9 years, so much so i've won 4 titles, 1 runners up and numerous Semi-final finishes, achieved the highest grade possible for Jr.Tennis Competition and ultimately scored myself a job being an part time assisstant tennis coach.. however I FEEL that if someone told me something tennis related and made me think wtf?! i wouldn't go verbally rape him with all the reasons why he's wrong but i would think first and then actually accept it if it's kinda reasonable and makes sense, cause i know that in tennis what may work for one person does not particular work for another person. Additionally i really hate the fact that they go 'rah rah rah you suck, your stupid, your dumb, but really honestly, truly, your work is great! xoxo keep it up =)' WHAT A BITCH! im going to freakin blastomise you if you ever say that shit again..
Maybe im being harsh.. but i don't think soo, because anyways so something happen to me today yeah and i was like hmm okay, and then when i asked to give an example and SHOW me in person all this stupid idiot could do was firstly say 'oh well im tired, oh well the equipment is dodgy, oh well im a bit sick but i can try' and then when i witnessed it i was like wtf.. that sounds and looks freakin awful.. And even if i were wrong... just saying.. and actually there might be a high possibility too (opps) just like being nicer wouldn't kill either. Like seriously you have attitude problems or something sheesh. Your wrong! your gone! don't ever talk me again! GRR!!
Currently Listening to: Nothing
Current Thought: Wanting another drinkup
Anyways I have once again returned to blogging and i really don't know how long this one is going to last for. All i can say is that 2008 is almost over and i think i know i've changed as a person. I just want to say I used to blog as a reflective piece so i can read over my old entries and see how much fun i had with all my friends and such... However thats going to change now, i really can't be stuffed writting about all that and I probably will still, but, now i've changed my direction. I just wanna write whats on my mind and get it off my chest and im going to say it's going to be harsh and sometimes really mean but im finding if i don't write out how i feel im going it's going to eat me up inside.
So holidays have been great so far, best holidays ever besides the fact that i have to work a lot, although i really don't mind because i adore my work mates i really do. They are so funny and kind and really nice people and i'd never imagine myself being friends or even meeting people like them. The only thing thats been effecting me if that i got dumped by my girlfriend this holiday, yehh and ouch it really does suck but it's been almost a month now and i think im okay. You know when it happen i told myself i wouldn't be one of those really crazy idiot ex's that bitch about it to the whole world but i guess i am because i guess im writting about it now.. weird yeh? I guess what really anoyed me so much was that her reason was so weak in my eyes. And then later that night she wanted to talk to me more and explain herself a bit. Hmm so i thought finally theres a bit more to the story but i was wrong, so very wrong. It's like okay she said something but really she said nothing at all, and then she was like asking me to talk to her because i apprantly didn't say anything. I swear this line totally anoyed the **** out of me, firstly i have so much to say and so much to rant about and i actually did but to my bestest friends in this whole wide world and not to you because there is no point. Why would you want to talk still?? I don't owe you anything, i don't need to tell you anything anymore, your even a close friend to me. GOSH im sounding so uncool right now but this is how i feel.. I don't even think we can be friends anymore, because i don't even think we were close friend to begin with. I remember once you said to be that maybe we don't see this relationship the same way, and maybe i finally understand that...
I think it's for the best that it did happen because when i think of a relationship im looking for 3 things.. support, affection and constant communication and honesty.. And it's really sad to say this but i don't even think we had any of that... i think i found all that through my best friends then my girlfriend and what kinda like.. gosh thats just wrong yeah. Anyways so my dad had a talk with me over coffee in the city when we were on our lunch break from work, and it was soo weird but im glad he did. And then my mother kinda had a jokish talk with me too about the photos she could see of us all around my room. It actually made me laugh and i realised it was about time i took them all down. So i gathered all our cards, gifts, photos and placed them into a yellow box which i've promised myself i will never open again. It was really hard and anoying to do but im glad i did it. What i really loved about it was my mum and dad were actually really supportive of me, and caring and it amazed me and kinda made me go 'wow my parents really love me and never want to see me hurt' .. As some people may say im just a fkn slave driver to everyone i know .. and im sick and tired of hearing all that crap all the time, i get it if it's a joke but why are people still making the same joke over 4-5 years ago.. and for the record im not a fkn slave driver to my parents or to my friends and if i ever hear that one my time im going to explode i really am and i mean it this time!!
Anyways this is really depressing to write but after all that.. i miss her.. i really so and im soo sad right now and ive got the feeling where i want to cry but im not.. because even though i never want to see her again, and even though she hurt me soo badly, and even though i know breaking up was for the best... i still miss her.. and i loved her.. like ive never loved anyone in my whole life before... But don't get me wrong.. im over it and im glad and nows the time for moving on.
Currently Listening to: My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dione (Titantic)
Current Thought: I'm never going to finish all my work by friday =(
Today was a weird day. I set my alarm off at 10:30 but i had woken up at 8:30 by felita who like randomly knocks on my door and asks for the stats book or something and then she comes back in and asks for 2 dollars... oh man i was soo drugged, sorry felita and also well underdressed .. how awkward moreso for me because i had to get up and go get my wallet to give her 2 dollars haha. Yeah anyways went back to bed then at 9 i heard like the door bell and my first thought was silly girl forgot something but it was my mum at the end, argh anoying i just want to sleep! ahha, yeh anyways i did manage to get back to sleep and yeh it was a good sleep!! haha loved it before having to wake up and go to uni. Yeh anyways i suspect why im soo tired because i was talking to the haileybury boys pretty late last night and i was really drained that night as well haha. Ohh welll moving on...
Yehh when i got to uni i had stats lecture and yeah Saana reminded me of the maths assignment that is due in .. die die die, oh my gosh im going to do it tomorrow before i come home i think since i don't have psychology lab ^^ yay. I don't know then later i did some assessments with felita and will and james and i don't know i didn't do so well for one of them and i was soo sad, i don't know why.. usually i just look at it and go 'oh well yeh who cares' but today i was quite sad about it. Later going to campus centre i had a really strong sensation just to break down and actually start crying... lucky i didn't because how awkward would it of been but yehh, i don't know even writting this now is making me sad =(. I think it's all this workk and stuff thats getting to me im getting stressed and i feel like everyone around me is doing so well and like my world is starting to fall a bit because im not fast enough or smart enough to keep upp. argh!! Yehh i saw Kristine, Amy, Sam, Lambert, Catherine and yehh started talking to them and kinda shook it off and it cheered me up heaps =). Yeah although it was pretty hard first because amy .. being amy tends to say a lot of things and i just couldn't be stuffed to handle all her crap today but yeh just try to play along regardless. Kristine brought me ice-cream sooo yeh i was happy ahhah im such a little boy, icecream cheers me up ahah! Oh yeh before i had to go to psychology lecture i saw esther oh my goshh that made my day seriously just to see her, touch her, hug her omgg i really needed a hug yehhhh thanks estherrrr!!!
All during psychology lecture i just wrote notes to Judy and yeh as usually filled up a whole page ahhah, and yeh the lecture was so boring i don't even know whats going on anymore and thats pretty bad haha i can see myself doing worst this semester then last i mean last semester i actually tried to take notes now i just don't bother =(. Then right, felita and james and judy and i decided to wag the last hour and go to the pool room where omg so many people were and it was fun! haha. Yeh saw like Lambert, Monica, Kevin, Sam, Jeremy, Sidney, Henry, Jason, and like heaps more haha it was cool. So yeah played a few games and such and yeh very enjoyable =)
Anyways randomly yeh at the bus station i was with a few people and stuff and yeh this like well James (haileybury) came up with like a few other people and some random girl was like 'Hey ur Tim! i know u, from the internet' and i was like thinking whoa .. okay haha a bit spooky but nah she seems like a cool person. Anywayss i really should stop noww ahha maybe i'll start crying in my room but no im going to resist and do my biology essay.. which quite possibly has potential to make me cry anyways ahha.
laters.
Currently Listening to: Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
Current Thought: bio essay
Okay guys im so sorry for not consistently blogging but yehh i just feel so tired all the time now these days to keep blogging and yeah .. ahha, oh well starting to blog again now. Lets see, Hmm.. well a lot of stuff has happened from the last time i've blogged but it would be impossible to blog aobut it all but yeh just got to say a lot of my friends have been very sad and emo these days and it makes me sad because i don't want them to be sad =(, hmm yeh just personal, friendship, relationship problems and such and yehh aww i hope it all works out for them all. I've been really happy these recent days and yehh it doesn't really help but i feel happy besides the school work thats now piling on at uni.. argh, i don't know how im going to finish it but yeh my goal today is to try to do my bio essay actually not try i will at lease do 200 words please!! ahah. The essay is only 800 words so if i do 200 words that means i've done 1/4 of the essay... ahha actually i sincerly doubt i will even make 200 words it's just soooo boring to start or do anything.
Hmmm what was i actually going to blog about, oh yes thats right. blog topic of today is "the amazing change of people". How many of you guys have actually stopped and paused and actually thought really hard if you have changed as a person. Hahah i know it's hard and probably a really stupid questions because generally when people go 'oh you've changed' the common response is just 'what! no i haven't! u suck' lol ahaha. well anyways i've been thinking and now i've come to the conclusion that everyone changes no one stays the same. However, there are good changes and bad changes, it becomes bad when i feel like 'whoa i don't even know you anymore' yehh that quite sad, actually i don't think i would of minded if i kept in touch more often with these people but i suppose what was i expecting i don't see half my high school friends at all anymore, and yehh what can u do? You know what, my guy friends in year highschool right from the beginning like year 7, i regret that we weren't a much tighter group to begin with. Like my other group in highschool we still hang out and such and when we catch up we can talk about anything and such, but i feel with my jr.high friends that even when we talk it's really shallow talk and yeh =(, hmm... makes me wonder yeh i don't think i was ever too tight with them. But their all still really nice and friendly people i suppose =).
Anyways moving on, i also have another thing to write about.. ahah i just typed it up but then i deleted it because yeh i don't think i want to blog the second point up haahha! oh well, lets end here with some random points
- Peter ur soo mean don't let me play with ur i-phone hahah! jkjk
- thanks anthony for the chocolate at max brenner
- I want more milkshakes with judy and felita!!
- Kaitlin! we need to see each more at uni since u left to jons lifegroup =(
- Hahah thanks Allen for the poker money ahah.
- Stop being sick Kevin!! ur going to infect everyone haha
- I think Andrew and Robbie are spooke alike ahha
- I love you Esther!!
Currently Listening to: I wanna - WonderGirls
Current Thought: Uni tomorrow haha
Hey guys well a lot has happened since my last blog entry, firstly i want to say i survived though 1 week of working yay it was crazy but it got easier and stuff and yeh. Umm yeh anyways im such a lazy guy i really can't be stuffed blogging but i do have to mention that like i had a lifegroup social and yeh it was combined and yeh it was awesome really good! seriously go Anthea, Jon and Marcus (our leaders) for organising it! yay! Umm basically we all met up for dinner and yeh it was good to catch up and at the same time make new friends with other people and yeh all good. Umm we went to Stareast and yeh had dinner then we drove all the way to the cliff which is like a park with this awesome cliff and u can see the lights and stuff and yeh it's awesome played some games there and such and yeh.. hmm i shall post up some photos hahah so u guys can see =) hahaha. Actually theres not many photos to post up soo lets skip ahha.
Hmm anyways lets move on. AHhah and yes James has been nagging me to blog and yeh with good reason i've been neglecting this site for a while now haha, but anyways i shall blog about james pho party =). Yes this was a saturday and yeh it was really fun no really! ahha. Felita and me got to james place around 6:15 i think and yeh people were there and we weren't the last because other people came later too and yeh much fun. I mean it was good because it gave me a chance to hang out and talk to people who i don't usually talk to, i mean of course i talk to Judy and Felita and James and even Anna and Tallon a lot but not really Andrew and Lily and umm yeh Anthony but everyone is really nice and awesome so it wasn't weird at all ahha. Ohh and also i got to meet Isaac some guy i've never seen before and yeh i found out he's doing the same course as my friend Janice ehhe wow small world i shall ask Janice if she knows Isaac =). Hmm yeh, we had pho for dinner + springrolls and yum was nice!!! Heheh felita was like 'whats pho?' and she was like saying it all funny and acting all fob ahah actually it was quite adorable heh. Hmm yes dinner was nice, good work James =) We then made ourway back the other room where randomly we were watching wizard of oz haha! but i actually like that movie! haha im weird yes but i found it cool i first watched it when i was around 10 hahah, ahh the memories hehh.
Yeh people started playing poker and such ahah i first played but lost interest really fast and started doing stupid things and then i let felita take over and yeh ahha, she actually did well ahha which is amazing considering she doesn't know how to play poker ahahh! Yeh i was more interested in talking to Judy, because ahha judy and i had heaps to talk about hahahah! Ahhh man this blog entry is horrible haha sorry james i can't write anything better right now ahahh so now im resorting to dotpoints ahahha.
> Was good
> Anthony and Judy liked throwing chocolates at each other around the house
> James house has no reception for peoples cells except for me! yay ahha it loves my phone
> Laugh at judy as it looks like she didn't even eat any of James Pho ahha (but at lease i know she did ^^)
So yes now lets enjoy the wondergful random pics that were taken on that night ahha
Anthony and Anna awww.. although it's almost scaryy this pic haha 
Anna and me ROFL we look scared of the camera haha
Me, felita and judy
James with his poker face =)
Andrew, Isaac, Anthony + Lily
AHahha yehh anyways on another note just quickly i met judy today at knox and yeh just randomly caught up and walked around and looked things and window shopped and ran around toys r us hahaha pressing everything we could hahaha! ANyways i'll cut it there i have some things to do before uni tomorrow hahaha, catch ya all (whoever is reading this, mainly james i suspect)
Currently Listening to: Girl (feat. Jinbo) - Epik High
Current Thought: I need to be more sensative i think
Well guys i've been playing way to much tennis.... haha and yeh im sore and it's been windy and cold and thats why i think im starting to become a little sick. Hmm but anyways more on that later i have to blog from the last time ... which was Thursday.... sooo i have to blog friday first =)
Friday: Haha i almost forgot but nah friday was a lot of fun. I went to the city to hang out with James, Felita and Judy but before i also caught up with esther for a bit because she was working that day so that was awesome =) hehe. Yeh so anyways caught the train down and went to MC (melbourne central) and yeh met up with esther first and yeh was good just normal talking and catching up on things heh, then james came later and then finally felita came ahaha. We decided to go to max brenner and yeh drink and stuff and yeh sadly at 1pm esther had to go work so aww had to say buy to her, i walked her back to the store then rejoint james and felita at max brenner. we ordered drinks ahhaha and yehh soo chocolate like and yeh was funny because james was really rich and thick and he didn't even drink much of it and to make things worst felita added some of hers into his drink which made it taste like coconuts and james doesn't like coconuts ahha soo yehhh aww poor james haha.
Hmm yeh later we caught up with judy and yeh nothing really special we just walked around did some window shopping and caught up and stuff and yeh all good fun heh. We like went to myer and judy and felita went up the esculators *sp?* like just 2 steps and james was like what? why are u going up again and they just like stood there with confused looks on their face ahahha, soo funny they could of just came down but them being girls just kept going up and decided to come down again later haha. Yehh and then guess what guys! ahahh we're soo asian we went to the MAC areas and played with the webcam and took photos ahahah! i shall post them up now!!! hahahahah Awww that made my day haha.
Me, Felita, James and Judy
Hahah yehhhhh Funn i have a feeling when uni ends i'll look back on these photos and just smile, these people are my close close uni friends and their awesome =). Heh anyways we caught some lunch and the caught a tram with judy for a bit because she was going to the hospital to do some work and then james and felita and i just caught the train back home hehe. So yeh friday was much fun! even though we did like nothing it still was fun ahhah!
Saturday: Saturday i woke up really early to go to springie with my brother and dad because nicholas and i wanted to go cut our hair. Awwwww im sad because he didn't cut it right and yehh i miss my old hair i think even though people have been telling me it's fine i don't know i just don't like it as much =( hahah. im such a girl LOL! hahahah. Soo yeh went there early then came back and i really really really wanted to sleep but nooo had to play tennis competition and it was bad =( i lost soo badly lol the score was 3-6 6-1 2-6.. and then doubles was 1-6 4-6 so yeh not a good day ahha. But in my defence i don't train as much as i used to and im not used to match play anymore and alsooo it was classic clay and i've only played on classic clay twice in my life ahah! still.. i know they aren't very good excuses haha.
Anyways in the evening went to watch KungFu Panda for sharons chuch thingie and oh my goodness it was soooo good really! really! i can't get over this movie i loved it soo much ahhaha seriously one of the best cartoons i've seen in a long time and i love cartoons ahha. Yeh i got to see Esther, Amanda, Sharon, Janice, Julian, Jason, David and other people and yeh was much fun ahhaha. AHah and yeh i have to say there were children in the cinema and oh my goodness they laugh sooo loud and funny like ahhaha but it was kinda anoying but at the same time i was really happy for them because it sincerly looked like they were having the time of their lives ahha. After the movie we headed back to Glenny where we went to bobs kitchen and had food Mmmm food and yeh was good we had to split the table though sooo David, Janice and Jason sat on one time while Amanda, Julian, Esther & I sat on the other and yeh ahahh it reminded me of highschool hehe, Julians lame comments and convosation are like .. oh man so many highschool memories hahah. Yes this night was amazingly awesome as well! hahaha even though i was dead tired because of eailer that day ahahh.
Saturday: Hmm once again an awesome day! ahhahah okay okay i keep saying it but nooo really it's true hahah because i was also with Judy, James and Felita again! ahha Ohh and i got to see Henry for a bit too so that was good too =). Yehh because i took them all to play tennis in the morning ahhaha and Oh my goshhh soooo funny! ahhaha Man i don't even know how to blog this it was just funny! hehe a must! we must play again guys ahha get some exercise (picking up balls mainly) and socially laughing at each other for being a bunch of uncos ahhahah.
Yehh actually it was only James, Judy and Henry and Me playing tennis, felita was at my house unpacking some stuff because shes moving in. Yeh anyways we headed back to my place and yeh henry went home, aww i feel bad for henry because he didn't get much sleep he went out clubbing and i feel like he didn't have as much fun because we didn't really talk to him that much... i hope he had fun though seeing us ahhah because i haven't seen him in soo long. Anways yeh we then walked all the way to kmart plaza and yeh had lunch at nandos where we saw WILL! omg!! will! i love will ahha! because he works there and he gave us sooo much free food it was amazing whoa man i almost feel bad! haha i so have to treat him to something and take him out one time! Yeh anyways sooo we just sat and chatted for ages and yehhh then we dropped james at the bus station because he was going to boxhill to meet other friends while Judy, Felita and me went to kmart ahahh where we played around with toys and stuff and randomly walked around haha. Then we went by coles and now it just reminds me of henry haha because he works there, aww lol. But theres this like icecream shop place next to it and we just ordered thickshakes and yeh sat down and talked and yeh it was good haha i love talking to felita and judy, it's always really interesting and fun and awesome =)
After Joe came and picked us up and took us back and then i can't believe felita she just randomly left with joe LOL while judy and me were upstairs and we were like what? soo yeh i just sat and talked with judy more until her mum came and picked her up and yehhhh Hmm this day was good haha. I really really really want to go back to that icecream place and buy thickshakes again ahahha.
Today: GUESS WHAT GUYS? i played tennis again! haha this time with my highschool buddies David Ng, Isaac, Shiwen, David K and Saranch and even Henry came along (another one). So yeh these guys are pretty funny too but they can actually hit the ball slightly better =). Yeh it was really cold and windy and even raining a bit but we still played ahahha and as a consequence i think i may be getting sick oh no! haha Yeh we played for a couple of hours and then headed back, ummm David and Isaac came with me to red rooster for lunch and yeh caught up, was good to see isaac it feels like i haven't seen him in months.. ahha which is probably about right ahah! Hmm something else that reminded me of today was David K, in my year book he wrote something like 'we have to play tennis sometime' and i guess it finally happen today wow, ahha. Honestly i never thought it would of happend but im really glad it did =) hehe.
Sooo yeah guys that is my massive update... well it feels massive like i've been typing forever hahah im tired of blogging now soo i will catch u all next time =)! BYE BYE
Currently Listening to: So Hot - Wonder Girls
Current Thought: Yay i don't have to work til next week =)
Hey guys well im offically on holidays and yeh i was going to blog before.. because i actually had this saved the day where i went to the Lib to go study Korean with Amy ahahha. Hmm but yeh i got lazy and i didn't even bother blogging but yes a lot has happen since let me try to recap although i probably can't ahha.
Well lets see the day before Korean exam which was the 22nd happen to be my 7months with lovly esther =) sadly though we didn't spend the day together since i still had a exam on the 23rd =( which was quite bad.. and that reminded me that lambs actual birthday is on the 23 haha how funny ^^. Anyways on that day i stuided with amy at the lib Leelee and nicholas went to watch a movie together but it ended quite late and the lib would of closed so what i did was i drove amy home and then i went over to visit janice and julian!! arghh Julian! ive missed him heaps! haha and it was good to see him because he's visiting melbourne for holidays as he moved to queenslands to study =( awww.. Yeh and it was fun, hehe. Pretty much i went back and picked up my brother and his girlfriend and yeh went home and that was pretty much it.
The following day (Monday) i had the Korean exam and yes as usual i caught up with my korean buddies emma, jason, sidney, amy, Millie hmm.. i didn't manage to see bao =( i was quite sad because he's not doing korean next semester so i doubt i will ever see him again.. awww.. Anyways the exam was unquestionable my easiest exam i've done and even though i didn't get it all i still felt good =) please please please a high grade!!! ahha. Yeh had some food and then went all the way to chaddy to meet my awesome girlfriend!! All i can really say is that i enjoyed myself and it was soo good seeing her after such a long time. Felt like i hadn't seen her in ages!! awww i love you esther.
Tuesday: This was the day where i got to catch up with my highschool buddies ahha yay! highschool! ehehe and yeh it was a lunch thing at david teohs apartment thingie which is in clayton and then afterwards we would head back to the glen to watch Narnia which by the way was quite good =). Anyways in the morning i drove over to esthers, picked her up and then went to safeway near her place to buy garlic bread to bring over to davids place ... long story short, the food we were going to bring to davids place was cooked by my dad as he didn't know... so i had to just go buy another one. Anywayss got there and his apartment is quite nice =) although i think i would get a little lonly there. It was good to see Amanda, Janice, Julian, Sharon, David Ng, and Teoh again, aww reminded me of highschool days or hangouts at the glen during lunch times hehe. Anywayss me and amanda drove them all back to the glen where they bummed aroudn while i went home to eat dinner ahha as i was really pov =( lol ahhah! no no i had a better reason because i had to also return the car to my brother as he needed it to go to work at knox and yehh. Anyways met back with them and yeh played ddr with teoh =) it sucked they turned the music down to nothing BOoo stupid people! Yeah and then yeh then that was the movie and yeh was awesome hahah. Later the guys went back to davids place but me and esther just decided to go home so i waited with her until her dad came and then i got picked up after =)
Wenesday: WAS awful i had to go back to work !hahahah .. actually nah it wasn't too bad but yehh felt tired and back to work.. hmm not quite the best fun, but it was awesome to see everyone again hehe. And yeah then afterwards had Youth and yeh was awesome got to see David Ng, Janice, Rachel, Grace, Isaac, Josh, Michael, Andy, Kaitlin, Sinwa, Qian, Esther arghhh and heaps more a lot of people were there and it was really fun =)
At last i've come to today.. and theres nothing to really blog about except i had work again and yeh im soooo tired but i want to stay up and watch the wimbledon ahah soo yeh tomorrow im going out with James and Felita and .... whoever wants to come still but im sure it's going to be fun! bumming around in the city =)
Currently Listening to: 에너지 (Feat. 선예)
Current Thought: I can't wait to see Esther =)
Hey so a few days ago, actually thursday was lambs bday haha. Actually his birthday is on Monday i think... hmm the day of my korean examm ahha so yeh happy birthday then lamb! ahha he's a big boy now 18 OoooOOo no more sneaking around to get into clubs and stuff now =) Yeh anyways on thursday Lamb and the guys went to go watch the hulk in the city but i didn't go because i couldn't i had something else on so i just caught up with them after at crown. Yeah so when i got there Lamb, Allen and Kevin and I went to galatic circus and yeh played arcade games heh, allens really really good at tekken and yeh played heaps of that and i think lamb got into tekken too ^^. Ohh this like really funky game they played as well it was like u just hold onto this bar and apprantly it electric shocks u and u just have to hold on ahahh and yeh fun watching people play that. We then got to ddr ahha, oh my gosh i haven't ddred in like forever and yehh was good although Lamb is a freakin pro! he can do bags on x1 speed thats like omg.. how the hell? and also he doesn't play with the bar he can do like harcore stuff without it oh man... im so jealous of lamb he's just too good at everything!!! ahha.
Yeahh after playing ddr we were hot so we sat outside on these steps and yeh just talked random stuff and yeh waited for james to come but he was at the station so we just decided to meet him there so we all walked and took a tram back to southern cross station where we met james and trained back to lambs place which is like clayton. Heh we were talking about wisdom teeth on the train ahha i think they all have to go take them out soon ahha, was telling them stories and stuff ahha was pretty funny i made it sound really painful.. but honestly it is really painful! one of the worst experiences of my life i think! ahha.
Hmm yeh when we got off at clayton station lamb and kevin went to get pizza and then we all went to buy some drinks and stuff and yeh walked all the way back to lambs place which is really really close and yeh ahha, I think i told lamb i don't think i could live in clayton because it's .. i don't know but actually i really don't mind it, it seems like they have heaps of shops and heaps of places to go eat and stuff and it's close to a train station soo yehh it's actually pretty good and sooo close to Monash U ahha. Yeh anyways we got back to lambs place and yeh ahha his mum is funny and nice i like her ahha and it's good because i can understand canto and james, kevin and allen can't LOL! and lambs just like nOOOO u can understand ahahh! We ate food and then allen got sad because we couldn't get tekken working ahhaha aww poor allen a bit ragy so insted we played singstar ahahah! Sooo yeah anyways singstar was sooo damn funny! hahahah i think allen and james have vids of people singing ahahha lambs brother is just spastically funny! ahhaha and then yeh i hope allen sends me the vids i can blog them up ahah u just have to see them HAHAH!
Oh yeh the guys were drinking like all night ahha it was funny but like Lamb and Allen were soo drunk ahha, kevin and james were okay and yeh i didn't drink even though they like wanted me too but nahh i didn't really want to get wasted i mean i still have the korean exam and really all i wanted to do was celebrate with lamb. I noticed something though with kevin, he reminds me of like a older brother he was like taking care of them all.. well actually me, james and kevin were but kevins seemed to be doing the most haha. Yehh anywayss we hooked up the dvd to the projecter and yeh watched omg.. i forgot the movie but it was hardcore and awesome haha something about like in mexico and killing people with guns ahahh! yeh i liked it it was awesome and yehh after that we played pokerr and stuff and yehh that was about the time allen and lamb went happy happy high ahha =) They like wrestled and stuff and hahaha james has a vid i got to get him to send that to me too ahha it was pretty funny but they were like slamming each other and yeh the next morning u could see the bruises but yeh it looked painful ouch ahaha but at the time it was very entertaining.
Yehhh we ended up talking for after, well we were pretty much talking all night and yehh sometimes u just don't want to hear stuff when people are drunk but nonetheless still pretty fun and yeh ahha, Oohhh and allen just likes to randomly play rock,paper,sissors? haha whenever hes bored hes like 'tim lets rock,paper,scciors' lol ahha what a funny guy. Yehh anyways the guys kinda knocked out later in the night but i couldn't sleep it wasn't that i wasn't tired i was seriously dead but i was just uncomfortable so i got up and studied korean ahahha my exam when everyone slept so like 3:30 - 9:30 in the morning i was studying haha I had my book because i took it on the train to study but i didn't really so i just had it in my bag still and yeh so glad i brought it because i think i actually learnt a fair bit =). ahha.
Anyways in the morning we played more playstation games haha and yeh had breakfast/lunch and stuff and yeh didn't really do that much but yeh they were fine =) i think lamb threw up 4 times =/ .. or something i don't know but yeh they seemed perfectly fine and stuff and yeh all good. James and I left together we caught the 703 blackburn bus back and yeh ummm close to 2pm so yeh then made my way home and slept ahahh!
YES anyways that night was sooo much fun!!! and yeh lambs probably in queensland now ahha but if he reads this, if ever? just wanted to say i had soo much fun lamb!!!
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Hey Guys ahha well it's been a while since i lasted blogged here and yeh i've been really busy with work.. i think that put me off blogging was my 2000 word psychology essay and then after that exams came and stuff and yeh. All i can really say is that it's been fun since the last time i've blogged there have been so many awesome moments shared with my family and friends and some not so awseom ones. But yeh i'm not going to blog up what i've been doing because that would be crazy and although i can remember quite clearly i think... yeh not =). But i will list out a few things ahha in dot point forms =)
1. exams are fun =), i still have 1 more exam to do which is korean on monday but yeh i think i should be fine =). In short... bio and psych were really hard but passable but chem i think actually i know i failed =( thats bad.
2. Felita and James are awesome! haha, spend some time with them eatting at different places and just hanging out and yeh their company always makes me happy =)
3. I love shopping from Yesstyle and Yesasia! ahha
4. My family from singapore and malaysia came down to celebrate my grandmas 80th birthday
5. Felita is going to be moving into my house soon for homestay yay! =)
6. Dotaing with the Haileybury boys is fun! haha
7. Even though i didn't really get to spend much time with esther, the time we did spend together was awesome and we shared our 6months and yeh! i love u esther!!
And probably a lot more .. ahhaha
Hmm.. yeh anyways i shall blog about something i'm thinking about i suppose. Yeh well semester at uni is over and yeh... i don't know i still remember end of highschool i was scared and nervous and yeh i wondered if i would change as a person and how my life would end up turning out right now... Hmmm... I remember really clearly i was Soo scared about the future espcially uni but i think after 1 semester quickly learnt to love uni because i adjusted really well i think, yeh.. actually unquestionable i've made the best transition i could of ever dreamt of, i love all my uni friends and they support me and make me laugh all the time it's awesome and yeh unlike highschool, no one really cares anymore like if we have stuff to talk about we just all share it like a massive big family and yeh i love that about uni =).
Hmm this blog may seem really like .. all over the place because i can't really think much but bottom line is i think ... i don't know i feel like i've changed as a person a lot like heaps but deep down i don't think i've changed at all!! it's weird.. im thinking either i've changed soo much i can't even tell anymore.. or... everyone that i once knew like as in highschool has changed and it just doesn't feel the same anymore.. i don't know, i suppose... im feeling not content with my highschool friends anymore.. i guesss im just drifting slowly away from them which is sad =(, i mean it's mainly the guys i think, and i don't want to drift away from them but it's just slowly happening. Also, i've realised i don't really have much in common with a lot of them... i mean i do.. it's a weird feeling now that schools over all i can really say now is 'oh we went to the same high school' =(... .. . ..
this blogg is weird i doubt it is even accurately expressing what i am truely feeling... but oh well, lets finish off on a lighter note! heheeheheh tomorrow im going out with the haileybury guys to celebrate lambs bday! hehe, so looking forward to that! and then probably study rest of weekend then on monday im seeing esther ! yes!! omg i can't wait tooo seee herr u guys seriously don't know how much im missing my baby right now!!
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