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Brothers Graduation
Current mood: refreshedCurrently Listening to: Shake it off - Mariah Carey
Current Thought: wishes my internet was 10x faster ahha
So yesterday night was my brothers graduation and yeh it was so pretty. Melbourne Uni has the best buildings i've ever seen ever! i wish i could graduate there =( Anyways yehh so i just had work and met my family later at the Uni and yeh took heaps of photos which i promised myself i will not spam so i'll just post 2 pics up. The actual graduation is a bit boring and stuff but it's like a really really important event in their life so it's quite tolorable to stand. Although i must say i was really really tired from work but yeh it was good.
So anyways i just wanted to post that up and also Leelee and Nicholas are going to Malaysia and Singapore later tonight so i won't see them until 2009! aww lucky them!! and aww im going to miss them..
On Thursday, December 18, 2008 at
9:20 PM
I hate people who think their top shit
Current mood: PissedCurrently Listening to: Disturbia - Rihanna
Current Thought: Thinks that someone is a dickhead
Oh my goodness im soo angry right now.. well not really but anoyed and pissed over something so stupid too but arghhhhh.. Basically right i really really don't like people who think their top shit and know everything and their the best rah rah rah and everything it just pisses me off to no end. Like just before an convosation inspired me to write this entry.
Like seriously who really likes these kinda people? i mean you present them something and ask for their advice and they totally kill you with critisms.. and then what anoys me more is that i don't believe their background or cridentials shows that they are an expert in this particular area... Oh my gosh it's like the more they rant on about it the more you start to question what the hell is going on here. For example i will give you a very simple example that is totally not related to this. Everyone that knows me, knows i've been playing tennis for over 9 years, so much so i've won 4 titles, 1 runners up and numerous Semi-final finishes, achieved the highest grade possible for Jr.Tennis Competition and ultimately scored myself a job being an part time assisstant tennis coach.. however I FEEL that if someone told me something tennis related and made me think wtf?! i wouldn't go verbally rape him with all the reasons why he's wrong but i would think first and then actually accept it if it's kinda reasonable and makes sense, cause i know that in tennis what may work for one person does not particular work for another person. Additionally i really hate the fact that they go 'rah rah rah you suck, your stupid, your dumb, but really honestly, truly, your work is great! xoxo keep it up =)' WHAT A BITCH! im going to freakin blastomise you if you ever say that shit again..
Maybe im being harsh.. but i don't think soo, because anyways so something happen to me today yeah and i was like hmm okay, and then when i asked to give an example and SHOW me in person all this stupid idiot could do was firstly say 'oh well im tired, oh well the equipment is dodgy, oh well im a bit sick but i can try' and then when i witnessed it i was like wtf.. that sounds and looks freakin awful.. And even if i were wrong... just saying.. and actually there might be a high possibility too (opps) just like being nicer wouldn't kill either. Like seriously you have attitude problems or something sheesh. Your wrong! your gone! don't ever talk me again! GRR!!
On Tuesday, December 16, 2008 at
7:12 PM
So much to say but how to say it?
Current mood: Over itCurrently Listening to: Nothing
Current Thought: Wanting another drinkup
Anyways I have once again returned to blogging and i really don't know how long this one is going to last for. All i can say is that 2008 is almost over and i think i know i've changed as a person. I just want to say I used to blog as a reflective piece so i can read over my old entries and see how much fun i had with all my friends and such... However thats going to change now, i really can't be stuffed writting about all that and I probably will still, but, now i've changed my direction. I just wanna write whats on my mind and get it off my chest and im going to say it's going to be harsh and sometimes really mean but im finding if i don't write out how i feel im going it's going to eat me up inside.
So holidays have been great so far, best holidays ever besides the fact that i have to work a lot, although i really don't mind because i adore my work mates i really do. They are so funny and kind and really nice people and i'd never imagine myself being friends or even meeting people like them. The only thing thats been effecting me if that i got dumped by my girlfriend this holiday, yehh and ouch it really does suck but it's been almost a month now and i think im okay. You know when it happen i told myself i wouldn't be one of those really crazy idiot ex's that bitch about it to the whole world but i guess i am because i guess im writting about it now.. weird yeh? I guess what really anoyed me so much was that her reason was so weak in my eyes. And then later that night she wanted to talk to me more and explain herself a bit. Hmm so i thought finally theres a bit more to the story but i was wrong, so very wrong. It's like okay she said something but really she said nothing at all, and then she was like asking me to talk to her because i apprantly didn't say anything. I swear this line totally anoyed the **** out of me, firstly i have so much to say and so much to rant about and i actually did but to my bestest friends in this whole wide world and not to you because there is no point. Why would you want to talk still?? I don't owe you anything, i don't need to tell you anything anymore, your even a close friend to me. GOSH im sounding so uncool right now but this is how i feel.. I don't even think we can be friends anymore, because i don't even think we were close friend to begin with. I remember once you said to be that maybe we don't see this relationship the same way, and maybe i finally understand that...
I think it's for the best that it did happen because when i think of a relationship im looking for 3 things.. support, affection and constant communication and honesty.. And it's really sad to say this but i don't even think we had any of that... i think i found all that through my best friends then my girlfriend and what kinda like.. gosh thats just wrong yeah. Anyways so my dad had a talk with me over coffee in the city when we were on our lunch break from work, and it was soo weird but im glad he did. And then my mother kinda had a jokish talk with me too about the photos she could see of us all around my room. It actually made me laugh and i realised it was about time i took them all down. So i gathered all our cards, gifts, photos and placed them into a yellow box which i've promised myself i will never open again. It was really hard and anoying to do but im glad i did it. What i really loved about it was my mum and dad were actually really supportive of me, and caring and it amazed me and kinda made me go 'wow my parents really love me and never want to see me hurt' .. As some people may say im just a fkn slave driver to everyone i know .. and im sick and tired of hearing all that crap all the time, i get it if it's a joke but why are people still making the same joke over 4-5 years ago.. and for the record im not a fkn slave driver to my parents or to my friends and if i ever hear that one my time im going to explode i really am and i mean it this time!!
Anyways this is really depressing to write but after all that.. i miss her.. i really so and im soo sad right now and ive got the feeling where i want to cry but im not.. because even though i never want to see her again, and even though she hurt me soo badly, and even though i know breaking up was for the best... i still miss her.. and i loved her.. like ive never loved anyone in my whole life before... But don't get me wrong.. im over it and im glad and nows the time for moving on.
On Monday, December 15, 2008 at
8:26 PM
About me
Im so uncool I really don't know what to say here anymore. Lately I've been feeling lost and I wish that I wasn't. I used to think that if you followed the rules and played it cool then everything will work out in the end, but now I really don't give a stuff about that, I'm all for just having fun and going with the flow and who knows where it will take me. I guess you can say I've changed a lot, my first year of university was amazing and to be honest I've learnt a lot about myself and sometimes I think It's better to not know what you don't want to know
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